My Prof

Prof today told us that he read pfm’s blogger and saw many comments on him.

Some even spelled the whole full name of him.

We are advised not to comment on him in blogger but to approach him if we have anything to say.

No wonder my search engine always shows people searching for ‘nus sde pfm blog‘ or some module code and link all the way here.

I dint mention any of his name nor comment on him up till now so,

HELLO Prof!

Hi~

Family

Jasmine just gave birth to Calvier on 3 Feb and i dint know about it till i check out her facebook. So cute right? He looks big and has a lot of hair when he is only like 3 days old? *envy*

Then i went to my brother’s facebook to kope some pictures. This is another cousin, Yilong. So young and so playful! I cant imagine how he will turn out to be when he is older. He might really be interested in bikes?

And this is my brother. That is how he looked like about 7-8 years ago? I remembered him learning breakdancing and dancing at studiowu with  Ryan as his instructor but always came back with broken bones HAHAs. You wont one to see how he looked like when he is in secondary school. Its worse. Extreme makeover at every stages of his life.

I dont know when this was taken. Sure quite long ago too. And yesh, he is as short as me.

Then my cousin’s wedding last December when i wasnt in Singapore. She looked so different! So pretty without her glasses on!

I happened to find this one and only family picture but my mum and sis werent inside so i ASSUMED they went toilet. HAHAs. Or rather, many relatives werent inside. I dint see my cousins for very long and they do CHANGED a lot in terms of appearance and size. The used to be small small size one are so tall now and the used to be petite one is so Boomz. Even cousin’s baby Caven looks bigger. And my brother looks so different now too!

I must be prepared to see all of them during Chinese New Year rather than going to the house and ask, ‘who are you?’ Something which i always do every year. This is real bad.

:D

I napped for 4 hours in the evening after the dance vetting in the morning and lunch in the afternoon.

We complained about the small serving portion of the cream of mushroom during lunch and 4 more bowls of soup are re-served with his very black face on.

Nevertheless, the boss gave us a complimentary icecream with the motive of asking us to join their company. But, we ate, paid and left.

And this knot is tied by RuiSiii. hmm. VERY good kisser haha.

So ‘heart’

i always thought life would get better after im back but im so wrong:-

things im trying to avoid but it almost happen.

grandpa’s condition showed positive and is undergoing treatment.

shocking news i received in the morning and im supposed to make a decision. Career-oriented or family-oriented?

stress about friends, relationships, and more.

[birthday coming but i really dont want to grow old because i have yet to find my other half. Or rather, is there but i havent find a reason to accept.]

Im no longer dancing as much as i always do since im only doing one item but the amount of school work is humongous. I spent more time stoning, thinking and deciding issues that keep coming to me and thus have less time for school work. I even spent hours editing just ONE paragraph of work.

Took the test for depression and scored 40 out of 60 points, meaning im in severe depression. Was very shocked but i somehow believed that the test is not very accurate. Yes im feeling very sad but not to the stage of depression yet.

And im so sad to have a tummy. My days have been spent on supperS with dance friends. I need and want a flat tummy so that i can look better in my costume for EMCC

The suppermates:-

On a side note, I PASSED all my civil engineer exams and all AAAAAAAAAAAAAA! ! i cant find results for business modules though. If only my NUS results are as good.

Daddy says i should continue studying for Masters and my ACCA school. Should I?

Dreams come true

Now i believe dreams do come true.

But if so, how i wished you can dream of it earlier and let me know what is going to happen thereafter so i can get myself mentally prepared for whatever is coming.

[JW actually dreamt of what REALLY happened and im really surprised when i saw the sms the next morning.]

I jollywell know its going to hit on me again and so i got myself prepared because i told my girls that im going to be sensible now.

I need to be one. Im glad that he understood.

IMISSYOU.

Am i really happy?

After 2 dance classes at danzpeople, 3 tried to squeeze into 2 seats on mrt.

Haix. I foresee this coming. I always felt that everything is weird ever since im back and have a strong feeling that something is coming. Now they are really happening slowly. ‘Cries’ to two different cliques of friends and will there be more for other friends? The very strong feeling persists but i don’t want to lose any friendships or hurt any relationships.

Schoolwork is accumulating!

But im so totally not in the mood to do any work after so much has happened when im back. I did attempt to do some readings but time really flies.

Spent the whole night reading and writing up my dissertation proposal which is to be submitted before noon. And spent so much time thinking for a good TITLE last night but ended up changing it to a really simple title this morning. Prof is pushing us hard by giving us deadlines and despite me complaining about not having enough time to think and write up, i felt accomplished after completing them. (at least i finally did some proper work which i initially only wanted to touch them over the weekends.)

Now i need to get notes for the lessons i missed on the 1st 2 weeks before i can actually start reading on them because 3rd week of school is ending and i went for tutorials feeling LOST.

Lecturers and tutors here speak so much slower and i just  felt like dozing off any moment.

Project meetings scheduled but i have nowhere to pen the dates down. I seriously need an organizer or planner. And i don’t even have the time or (remember) to buy ballpoint pen which im now pathetically using the holiday inn’s.

And i scanned through my desktop just to realize that my essay for IRO only has pictures in them. I have not started writing on it. But im not sure whether the essay is compulsory. Can i not do?

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Like what Kry said- ‘Busi-ness’

Im not used to Singapore life yet! I napped very often in the evening. This entry will roughly tell why I do not have time to start studying- today. My fault.

Early breakfast at JP with Krystal and back to school with honey green tea. Finally BBT!

Another boring lecture that goes on and on like never ending. Cant they just stop talking about their personal life? No breaks and I had freaking stomachache halfway through the lecture. Was contemplating whether to endure or to visit the toilet because i sat right in front and in the middle. Gave up enduring in the end. Stood up, turned and saw lots of faces staring at me. *Blush blush* and ran up the stairs.

Met up with prof for dissertation discussion and questions kept coming to me like im in an interview. I wasnt prepared but im relieved that i still remembered some of the materials learned in Leeds so i managed to answer them. Now i have lots of articles to read and proposal to be in before 2Feb.

Heeded Kailin’s advice and tried to take BTC to Bukit Timah and changed to bus 171. Was so afraid throughout the whole journey because i do not know where to alight. Was supposed to be faster than taking a bus to clementi and change train but the stupid jam made my journey 1-1/2 hours long.

Shopped for Wilkson’s present and explored some parts of Orchard. New shopping malls and new shops. Visited world of sports and two Ed hardy shops but ended up buying Sexy Diamond hoodie for him. And i finally visit 4 storeys F21 that people have been telling me since im in Leeds. Some stuffs looked exactly like Primark but Primark is so much cheaper.

Was supposed to find David in town but he chose not to come out of that office building due to high security and a pass needed to enter. FORGET IT!

Met up with London girls at JP. Met lots of ex JJCians and Kelly’s NTU friends. Kelly tried to introduce different guys from her course to me because im complaining of not having a boyfriend and im graduating soon. I cant accept the fact that im turning old soon like next month! I even chatted with Eugene last night about why is it so hard for us to find partners. Okie end conclusion, different expectations. Xinrui came late and she ended up passing me my stuffs and we left her alone in JP when we jollywell know its very hard to find time to meet up due to her frequent flying. SORRY! I know every single day is precious in Singapore. Maybe next time go Taman Jurong foodcourt eat instead?

Rushed to buy Four Seasons ‘ah hem’ chocolate cake for Wilkson and a mini celebration and supper in school. Ruisi drove me home again. So sweet~ But she looked really tired. Sleep early girl! You need more rest seriously.

Vetting on 6Feb. I haven finish learning all the steps but i really like the cute and hot dance. Dancing tml again all the way till night. Foresee that I will be home after 11pm again.

Mei keeps reminding me to go back to JJ to visit bookshop auntie and drinkstall uncle because they are looking for me. Ive got no time even to visit my own ah gong who just got discharged from the hospital!

3 webcasts, 7 papers, tons of readings, presentations, report, tutorials. I haven touched any. Good luck. I need to get over the fact that now is not a relaxing time for me!

And can someone please tell me what textbooks do i exactly have to buy for dispute mgmt? How come Kailin is spending about $200 on them?