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Crepes Party!

Fancy a crepes party? Celine from France organized a party in our house and she is good at making them! I managed to learn her recipe and the skills in frying the crepes! Her best friend Lionel even said that Crepes are from France so they know it better on what to put in there! Thats like so hilarious when Sophie from New Zealand tried to argue that brown sugar is nicer than the white sugar in the crepes! OMG LOL!

We each bought some food to share but, I still love nutella! The perfect combination of nutella and bananas. yum yum.. Peektures! As you can see, there are four person not in the group photo because Celine is frying, Daisy from HongKong is learning, Martin from France came late and Collen is the photographer! Elenar is actually rushing off for the next party and the rest are invited guests!

The kitchen is small but we managed to squeeze ourselves in! Sophie is the one eating the lemon and she actually ate the whole lemon including the skin!

We were discussing on Cereal breakfast the next time round but well, I need to be able to wake up early.

Anyway, the nicest library University of Leeds has is the BROTHERTON library! It is the literature, arts and law library and its so freaking beautiful that you just want to stay in there to study. Credits to Cheryl for sneakily snapping pictures of the library. We are going there to rush our essays and readings tomorrow! It closes at 12am!

I always wanted to snap a picture of our residence and Cheryl managed to take one from her window because her room view is nicer, unlike mine where I can only see tree branches and leaves. The branches will even hit my window when there are strong winds. I dont like it because it will wake me up and it sounded scary. My window is so close to the tree that I assume that big spider that appeared in my room could have probably climbed in from the tree when I opened the window.

O well, theres sun in the cold weather so we wont know whether we got tanned because we are unable to feel the heat! Winter is coming and i hated it when its raining in the cold weather.

I dont want to cry everyday

But its getting hard not to

Especially when people says things to provoke my thoughts and opinions

I just feel like shit

RIDICULOUS!

OMG THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!

EVERYTHING IS SO RIDICULOUS!

EVERYTHING JUST SUDDENLY HAPPENED UNEXPECTEDLY!

WTH!

I hate it when i feel so helpless especially when living alone in a country not of my own.

I just want to talk to someone.

Im going to break down soon.

Before I was a Mom

I was looking through my blog stats where i saw a lot of facebook links to my blog and i always have the habit to click on it to see who the person is. This time round, i saw JESSIE LEE! I dont know whether is it the same old girl because this Jessie lee do not have a facebook straight into her profile.

To ignore that issue, I randomly looked at other ‘jessie lees’ and i saw this cute baby picture. I clicked and i saw something wrote by the mum:-

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know the bond between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1147027121&ref=search&sid=517605626.1986024705..1#/profile.php?id=1147027121

OMG and i suddenly burst into tears. Its not because im a mom but because i think this Jessie really gone through a lot and I am really happy for her to be able to feel the happiness and blissfulness of a family. I know this is random but im just so touched.

Odac girls in London

Kelly, Xinrui and i finally met up in London on Saturday after much planning or rather planning to meet up at xinrui’s hotel. Cheryl came with me because Nicole is stucked in her hostel so neither of them can go to find each other. Its very common in London since they tend to service and suspend their underground tube during weekends.

Anyway, we spent a night in the four star hotel since xinrui is a cabin crew. Its so totally different from staying in a hostel. I missed the days where i have the hotel room to myself!

Afterall, me and kelly had been to most of the attractions and were rather familiar with London by now so we took Xinrui out and we rushed to cover as many attractions as possible. We managed to cover London eye, Big Ben, River thames, Tower bridge, London Bridge, Chinatown, Harry Potter Platform 9-3/4 and British Museum. We did not manage to view the inside of British Museum though because they closes at 530pm. sad. And I have yet to visit the Arsenal Stadium!

And after such a long time without eating chinese food, we went for Four Seasons duck rice at Chinatown. A must-eat food in London and its freaking nice and expensive for just a duck and rice. But its delicious. Really.

Then the poor four girls had magee mee at night for dinner since we splurged so much on lunch.

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Finally the day has come!

Im not really excited now but im more of scared. Scared that i cant adapt to the new environment and partly because im having terrible flu and sore throat now. Im feeling super drowsy and i just dont wish to talk. Hopefully i can pass through the gates.

So, im practically rotting at home, trying to change into bigger luggage so that i can buy and pack more stuffs when i travel around europe. hehs. *wink* And im feeling so unsafe with just a atm card (no bank draft and no credit card), so i cant buy a lot! My parents very smart hor?

See? I have 2 check-in trolley luggages. Imagine Collen pulling them? Or should i say i havent figure how to pull them yet? Anyway, they have slightly exceeded the baggage limit from my weighing scale. Hopefully, it will weigh less at the airport from their weighing scale. And the thing is, I have no strength to carry the bigger one! Its way too heavy! *cries*

Hmm maybe i will have 2 or 3 people to see me off at the airport? Everyone’s living in Jurong is telling me that they will send me off from my house instead cos cabbing home from Changi Airport is way too expensive with the extra surcharge, midnight charge and blah blah. Well, we’ll see how later. Try not to mess up my house okie?

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whoever reads

Met up with sexy helen today to catch up with each other’s life. We spent 5 hrs talking non stop and she did not attend her class because of me so i felt quite guilty. I teared when i listened to her life and her friends around her, and reminnisce on mine. We may be similar in the past but we ended up with different decision and choice. Sometimes, it is really wonderful to listen to others because you may find that there are many others out there who are worse than you. You may not have what you want and may not be as happy and rich but there are also many others who are have gone through the worse trauma and are still living strongly. That is so relieving for me but i still feel for those who suffered.

Next, i was told that if i want to stop all these shit ive gotten recently, I should not even have started it. So i was thinking since i had started it, I might as well tell you what i am feeling right now. And im writing this for that secondary school classmate of mine out there that i do know you checked on me (thanks to wordpress and facebook). I just want to let you know that I am not trying to stop you from smsing who you want to sms. But I am unable to tolerate any nonsense from you because you are simply a girl who does not think. I had never done anything like what you said because whatever I did, he is beside me watching so I see no reason in lying through the smses. He is the one who held the phone in front of my face to show me your msges and he is the one who lend me his phone to read your msges when i asked for it. And can you dont be so childish to stop thinking that i deleted all his msges in order to stop him from receiving and that he did not read all your msges. Please also stop scolding vulgarities to me. That is very crude! You are just a girl who keeps sending emo and fury smses to a guy without getting any reply because he does not know what to reply you. When he did reply you and you still insist that its me who hogged on his phone, do you know how ugly you appear to be because you are directly scolding me to him. I have to tell you that that is not my phone so I do seek permission before i type anything and every msg sent out is vetted by him first. Im not afraid to tell you that there are other girls who do smses him too but he did reply them so do you feel ashamed that you cant accomplished what you’ve planned to achieve? I dare to write such things here and let people including him who read my blog knows about it because i have nothing to hide and you are the one doing things secretly and dangerously.

You should know that whatever you do unto others, others will still do unto you. I will never forget the incident that happened in secondary school in case you forgot about it but I have never even mentioned anything about it till now because there is always a limit to everything. If you have the capability to turn everyone against me, I can also do the same thing to you so i don feel sorry for you after you had landed into those shit where everyone hates you. And do you even know that everyone hates you? Your character till now has not changed. That is like so sad can? Or are you secretly trying to plan a revenge on me after so many years? Im telling you now that im no longer the secondary school Collen for you to bully. I believed in standing up for myself now and letting people know what i feel than to hide everything which make it seems like im the one at fault. Thank you and hope you understand.

[For anyone who wants to scold me for exposing her actions, you have to know that facing and enduring all these shit alone is terrible. So why make my life so difficult when i can defend for myself?]

SEXY LACE AND RIBBONS

CCC people are really sweet! We had outings followed by outings! And this farewell party is fun! I love the accompany! So do we have time for K? Or maybe when im back?

First of all the above lace and ribbony thinggy, i remembered many peeps been asking me when im flying off and stuff, so i shall post up the details. Please dont call me unnecessarily to my hp number though i will be bringing it along with me. You can contact me through msn, email or skype. We can webcam! hehs.

Departing 03 sept: Singapore terminal 1: 0140
(i will reach airport on 02 sept probably around 1140pm)

+ transiting and arriving in London hearthrow terminal 3 at 1215 (their time)
+ ive booked tickets back on 24 jan but i might be coming back earlier (tbc)

Contactable through
msn: collen222@hotmail.com
skype: siahlaypengcollen

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Okie. lets start the journey…

The night started from boon lay mrt and me catching a blangah snapping a picture of us using his camera. Maybe he is not educated enough to hold a handphone camera properly and he does not know such thing as reflection. So irritatingly, me and krystal try to hide and hide our faces. But i took some pictures of us later on too.

Then, we made a decision to enter REBEL and started ‘warming’ the dance floor (since its so empty) by taking tons of pictures and move on to ‘battle’ with the girl who is constantly rubbing her back with the pole. Or maybe she looks like she is doing so. The imitation is so freaking funny!

Yes, and the guys must do like what the girls did!

Tired of rebel music? We checked out ZIRCA and the cage!

Then the exploration came. We decided to visit LUNA with some pictures!

And some pole dancing! Woohoo! Maybe only the girls at the pole can dance better.

Then back to REBEL to randomly make some new dance friends for the night.

I dint know this place ends that late and we left around 430am? Followed by some bak kut teh near double O! Its really a fun night!

I know i had great fun last night but ive been finding and contacting you for a few days but in vain. Can i just know where have you been suddenly? Or maybe im just too worried for nothing?

what i want to say..

First, I want to rant on FASS modules! When sde and partner university approved this module on stage management, I then get to know that permission has to be seeked for mapping for FASS (the ’special’ faculty). So I go ahead and emailed the department and this is what I got:-

As a policy we do not allow mapping for TS1101E, which is our foundational module. Only in cases where the exchange module is significantly similar can an exception be made. In your case, the module is not sufficiently similar and so the mapping is not possible. We can however map the exchange module onto a dummy code which we use for situations when there are no appropriate matches.

I’m checking the procedure for cross faculty mapping because this is usually done through our administrator. Unfortunately, she is on leave and will only be back on Thursday so I may not be able to get back to you so quickly.

Also, my department has informed me that mapping from other faculties is usually done through the student’s home dean’s office. So you should complete the proper mapping form and send it to us through your dean’s office. If you have problems typing the form, you should check with your dean’s office about resolving the problem. Once you have done so, your dean’s office should be in touch with ours for the mapping.

*FUMES!!!!!!!!!!!!*

So is it approved? I assumed NOT right?! I want to take this module and I already sacrificed the bloody double credit amount for a normal module. I see the similarities for both module and my sde coordinator see it too so I dont understand why are the two not similar! I got problem typing the form because there is some problem with my microsoft office lah HELLO! Why is FASS doing this to me? I rejected all other business modules offered to me just because I wanted this module and am I supposed to email them back again to tell them, ‘im sorry but can I be offered back what ive rejected?” And with regard to next thursday, Im already off flying or travelling somewhere in some other states! Grrrr… so now i need a back up plan.

Next, i want to whine about not able to go under the sea..under the sea.. I meant underwater world! Where’s my pink dolphins too? Being whacked too hard by ben till it went haywire already?

I kope the following photo from xinrui. Dont you think its very nice? The more i look at it, the more i want, i really want to go and see it. But obviously its a picture taken in some other countries- Dubai. Sometimes, being a cabin crew is such an enjoyment where you have a nice pay, being able to travel around and experience different seasons, people and life. Well, except on the part that people comment it as being a maid in the sky.

Then I want to comment on the Singapore flyer. i still believe that flyer is not that boring. Afterall, I just hope to stay in there longer and partly must make the $10 worth it. And I like this pic. Somehow, i think its because of the 2 stupid faces.